Your type, 2nd part

Many women's magazine include articles about who should wear which colors. Years ago, a friend of mine got into these things and proselytized at any occasion. She wanted me to benefit from her newly acquired knowledge. First of all, she wanted to show me my real face by pulling all my hair back into a strict ballet dancer bun. It was a terrible shock to see my face like that. Though I hadn't cared about those things before, I listened to her. Before, I had felt reluctant avbout having certain colors 'prescibed' and others prohibited. But that day, I was eager to get insight into my friend's new knowledge. A pale blue would enhance my complexion, she told me, a rich pink put a girlish glimmer into my eyes. I had a mental look at my wardrobe and I got the feeling that I hadn't anything like that. She comforted me, saying that I could begin to underline my 'spring type' by wearing a pink or pale blue scarf. Later on, I should think about buying new clothes... Well, I was told to remove black, white, gray and brown clothes from my wardrobe. Otherwise I could get totally invisible. I obviously did not want to be invisible. Still, what I was told didn't sound good to me. Without exaggerating I could say that I simply hated scarves. I always remembered something I witnessed in a store. A buyer told an elderly woman that she should wear scarves in order to hide her wrinkled neck. The latter just put on a very cool smile and answered that she considered her age and her looks as something she felt proud of since they were the result of a good, fulfilled life with ups and downs. At that moment, I really wanted to applaud.

What exactly do we obtain if we hide behind colors that suit our so-called type? A shudder runs down my spine now when I think about things like that. We change into spring, summer, automn or winter type women. And then? To my mind, that is just another kind of dictatorship, forcing us into a certain straitjacket that we may not want to wear. It maybe useful if you really lack self-consciousness not knowing who you are, but even then should you try to listen to your inner voice instead of standard articles. How does all this color stuff work? On certain days I'm horrified at the idea of wearing baby blue, on others I love to do it. Why? I tried to find an answer to that question. I discovered that each day has its own color, since it has its own mood, its own expectations, its own tasks. On certain days, you may be forced to wear a certain colors because of external constraints, but I always try to avoid that. I want to feel well, and if that means that I want to wear black because I feel protected by this color, then I want to do so, notwithstanding my so-called 'type'. 
You can wrap yourself into black, it makes you inaccessible in a way. And that's exactly what you want to feel on certain days. White is the color of innocence, it's an open, child-like color. When we wear white, we smile inwardly. It will be a joyful, playful day. Beige and a pale gray are neutral, but not boring colors. We feel restrained, but not totally 'locked up'. Rich colors illustrate our mood. Red means fire, you want to fulfil something. Look at me! From a general point of view, the colors red, blue and green signal Sensuality, power but not that you are out of reach for the others. These colors are challenges. Try to find out for yourself what these colors mean to you. Choose a colors without thinking about it when you get up. It is not important if you are going to wear it that day. Just try to find out what you feel when you choose this color or when you put it back into the wardrobe to choose something else. What signification do you personnally give this color? Maybe you feel protected by blue, whereas I feel protected by black. 
Put up your own rules. Don't follow instructions of people that pretend that they know better than you do. Each human being is an individual with his or her own emotions and experiences. Colors and the kind of clothes that you decide to wear can up-grade or down-grade what you feel, and you are definitely the only person able to decide about that. I see more and more elderly women that are dressed as they want to, and I'm happy about them breaking ancient rules and conventions fixed exclusively for women. What is so seducing about the idea of vanishing into an army of gray mice, displaying the same perms and muted colors? Young people usually don't need encouragement to choose their own personal style or to express their mood through their clothes. Those who look askance at them should spend some time on their own thinking about themselves. I'm sure that those persons stick to the wrong colors, ideas, or maybe even the wrong way of live. Don't accept being instructed what to wear, feel free to wear what you want to wear, notwithstanding fashion, your 'type', etc. Be a witch, a businesswomanm, a temptress, a buddy, whatever you want to be at a certain moment. Don't care about other people mocking or laughing at you, the mockers have a problem, not you. You have begun a fascinating journey during which you are going to discover yourself, all parts of your personality. The freer you feel, the more individualistic you get.